Song I Adore!

Made In America Lyrics


my old man's that old man,
spent his life livin' off the land,
dirty hands, and a clean soul.
breaks his heart seein' foreign cars,
filled with fuel that isn't ours
and wearin' cotton he didn't grow

he's got the red, white, and blue flyin' high on the farm
SEMPER FI  tattooed on his left arm
spends a little more at the store for a tag in the back that says u.s.a.
won't buy nothin' that he can't fix,
with wd40 and a craftsman wrench
he ain't prejudice he's just, made in america

his wife, she's that wife that decorates on the 4th of july
but says "every day's independence day"
she's golden rule, teaches school,
some folks say it isn't cool but she says the pledge of allegiance anyway.

got the red, white, and blue flyin' high on the farm
SEMPER FI tattooed on his left arm
spends a little more at the store for a tag in the back that says u.s.a.
won't buy nothin' that he can't fix,
with wd40 and a craftsman wrench
he ain't prejudice he's just, made in america

born in the heartland, raised up a family
of king james and uncle sam


got the red, white, and blue flyin' high on the farm

SEMPER FI tattooed on his left arm
spends a little more at the store for a tag in the back that says u.s.a.
won't buy nothin' that he can't fix,
with wd40 and a craftsman wrench
he ain't prejudice he's just, made in america

made in america
made in america

my old man's that old man,
he's made in america

america!

Semper Fi <3

Song Of The Week!

"Stay" By:"SugarLand

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone
And I'll be crying


And I'll be begging you, baby
Beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting
With my Heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I'm dying


What do I have to do to make you see
She can't love you like me?


Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay


You keep telling me, baby
There will come a time
When you will leave her arms
And forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear
To love a man you have to share


Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay


I can't take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute
After all that I've put in it
I've given you my best
Why does she get the best of you
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine


Why don't you stay
I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
You can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay, yeah

Semper Fi <3

Who truly deserves the Thanks On Thanksgiving?

                Thanksgiving .... Isn't what it should be!  

                              
                              Thanksgiving is the one day a year that people sometimes think about giving thanks for everything that they have! I don't want to sound mean however THAT IS A LIE! How many people truly thank those who should be thanked for what they need to be thanked  for? The United States Military should be thanked for what they do not just on Thanksgiving but everyday! They risk not only there lives but there families, relationships with friends, members, children, everyone who they have touched in one way or another through out their lives. Its this time of year that everyone feels the need to pretend that they care about those who are in need, those who need help and have no one to turn to. The people who just never learned how to do anything more then being in the military. Yes everyone always tries to do something nice for those who are homeless and in need of a warm bed and hot meal. Yet how many of those people who are out wandering the street out there because they never learned anything more then how to fight for our country? The Statics for the number of vets that are home less is current 1 out of every 4 people! Are you kidding me? ONE FOURTH?  What kind of people are in this country when we allow our vets to be home less after everything they have done for us and our country? Its sad to know that so few people honestly care about the ones who have fought for us to be able to live the lives we go about every day never thinking of what we don't have to give up because someone else is giving up their life for us! Some one else is out there missing there children grow up so that we can sit at home every night and feel like we are going to lose our minds because we are so stressed out about how to keep up with all the bills. When we should  be thanking GOD and The US Military for giving up the time they should be spending with their own children and  tucking them into bed every night to go out and make sure we are safe to be able to continue living our stress filled, crazy, pointless every day the same as the last lives! We should be working every day to do everything we can to support the men and woman who choose to join our military! Every day when we all wake up in our beds safe from all of the evils of the world we need to wake up and thank the vets and Military members who do everything for us while we sit  on our butts doing nothing to support them while they are off fighting for us to stay safe!  Most people who are not directly joined to the Military don't care about the Military nor support the Military the way that they should!  If our nation care as much about  the Military and Its Vets as they do the latest trashie pop start who got knocked up by Lord only knows who then we would all be better off!  This country is NOT going to get any better if we don't all get off of our butts and do something about it! We as a Nation, are only as weak as our Weakest link! Thanksgiving should be all about giving thanks for the things that really matter in life! It should be a day where we all can sit down and have our dinner knowing every Vet in our country is sitting down to a hot meal and knows that this Nation they fought for is thankful for them and what they have done for us all! Im sorry for those who do not agree with my point of few, however you could try I don't know the " getting out raged and bringing up this being America, war is bad, the Military are murders, " blah blah whatever winning you can come up with so that you don't have to face the fact that with out those people serving in the Military past, present and future  those winning little people would not have the freedom to being winning right now! So Thank a Vet, and the people who truly deserve to be Thanked on THANKSGIVING!


Semper Fi <3

                                                                  

Defining The Future!

                Sitting here thinking about everything I want and how to make my dreams become my reality. I know that this is going to sound crazy however I can't help it sometimes life is just crazy as can be and there is nothing you can do about it. Other then hold on and try to enjoy the crazy, wonderful ride no matter how scared you are or how much you wish you knew what was going to happen next. I have had something going on in my head that really I shouldn't even be thinking about at all but I just can't stop myself from thinking about it no matter how hard I try. Its wrong and crazy and I should not be even dreaming of thinking about it but I just can not stop! 
                I have Marriage on the brain and I am scared because even though I have been married before it was only for a short period of time and I have never really experienced being married like truly married. I love him and I want to marry him however there is a problem that I am trying my hardest to fix at this moment. I am by law still married to my not so ex husband. He had failed to give me my divorce for 6 years now and I believe I shouldn't have a problem getting my divorce at this point. However all that should be over and done with in the next month and a half and then I will  be free to get remarried if I want. I know that  I wish that A and I were getting married even though we have only been together for like almost two months now. ( not counting our short split up due to my throwing a tantrum ) He brought up marriage when he and I had only been dating for like a week! However he hasn't brought it up again and now I am thinking about how I want to get married! I adore him and I can't see spending my life with anyone but him. He makes me laugh  so hard that I cry. Hes sweet, caring , loving , tall, sexy, smart, hard headed, mean looking. Really he is totally perfect for me and I love him as scary as that seems. I have been scared for so long to tell anyone that I love them and then out of no where I just know I am in love with this man. I guess when you know, you just know and there is no reason to wait for the proper time period to get married. I don't know how I feel about telling him that I have been thinking that after my divorce goes through that I want to marry him. Is it wrong for the female to be the one to bring it back up? 
                  I don't know if its wrong or whatever but I think I am going to have to think of away to tell him how I feel about us getting married. I know that it could make everything harder on the both of us because we have both been married before and I decided a long time ago that if I ever get remarried I want it in a Catholic church, my dream wedding, and everything just as it should be with a man that I know I can spend the rest of my life getting to know and loving everything about no matter what problems we are faced with. I know that he might now want the wedding I want but I know he wants to be with me. 
                 Most guys take years to think about if they want to marry a girl however I think maybe because he had brought up marriage before so early in our relationship maybe he wont tell me how crazy I am when I bring it up this time. I adore this man and I don't want to spend another day longer then I have to with out being his wife. With out vowing to be together for ever and always until death do us part. I am not a jump in head first kind of girl I love planned out things and everything to be set in stone so I know what is going to happen next. I can't believe that I want to do this but I can't not do it, I can't live my life with out being that lucky girl who gets to be with him every step of the way no matter what direction his life happens to go in. I feel so lucky to have him in my life at this point in time I can't wait to see what the next month has to offer! 


.... Wedding Bells Are Definitely Ringing .... 


Semper Fi <3

Loving This Song!

So this past weekend A & I were watching a movie that I have never seen before called Pure Country. I didn't get to watch the full movies just about 30 mins into the movie but I am in love with it! Such a great movie and I adore the song " I cross my heart " I am posting the lyrics to the song because it reminds me of my amazing boyfriend. Missing him so much and cant wait to be able to spend more time with him this coming weekend if I am lucky! Miss you baby!

Artist: Strait George
Song: I Cross My Heart
Album: Pure Country

Our love is unconditional, we knew it from the start. 
I see it in your eyes, you can feel it from my heart. 
From here on after let's stay the way we are right now, 
And share all the love and laughter 
That a lifetime will allow. 

I cross my heart and promise to 
Give all I've got to give to make all your dreams come true. 
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine. 

You will always be the miracle that makes my life complete, 
And as long as there's a breath in me, I'll make yours just as sweet. 
As we look into the future, it's as far as we can see, 
So let's make each tomorrow be the best that it can be. 

I cross my heart and promise to 
Give all I've got to give to make all your dreams come true. 
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine. 

And if along the way we find a day it starts to storm, 
You've got the promise of my love to keep you warm. 
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine, 
A love as true as mine. 




Semper Fi <3

WE ARE BACK TOGETHER AT LAST!

 As Of November 11th 2011 My Marine and I Are                      
               Officially back TOGETHER! 


          I am so freaking HAPPY right now!  Adam and I are back together now! so as of 11/11/11 I have my man back! I will NEVER do that again! I will always talk to him and tell him how I feel for now on and not just try to play stupid games to throw a tantrum. I don't think I can handle going through that again I missed him so much!  
           
                I am spending the weekend with my wonderful boyfriend and WOW he has been amazing  this whole weekend so far. He is not the kind of guy who waits on a girl hand and foot , I have never known him to cook or clean or do anything of the kind. He is " that guy " the one who saying things like " women have two places in the kitchen and in the bedroom and that's where they should stay ." Yes I know he sounds like a total Asshole who needs to know that this is 2011 not the 1930's and females can do any job a man can do. That is how he tends to come off however hes not like that hes a good guy who doesn't have a problem with the fact that females are more then just house wives.       


                  Anyhow ....  I watched as he cleaned his house ( which anyone who knows me I have OCD and I love to clean and hate when people don't do it right, right as in my own way! )  all by his self and for once I didn't even want to re clean the whole place after he was done. He did everything just the way I would have done it I was so darn proud of my wonderful boyfriend. He made my coffee and brought it to me, went to the market and came back with FOOD! No beer no normal guy foods that you would expect a guy to come back with but real honest to God food! I was so proud of him!  That night he made us Alfredo pasta , the following night he made us perogies covered in butter! I had the most amazing weekend with him. I can only pray that this is what every time I get to spend with him is like. Lord I adore that man!  I am so blessed to have such a wonderful boyfriend in my life after everything we have been through in these past weeks I can honestly say I wouldn't change anything for the world! I don't know why I had to go through what we have been through but I know that there is some kind of reason. Maybe I had some kind of lesson to learn, maybe I needed to know that I can't get away with throwing a tantrum. I don't know what the reason was but I know that there is a some kind of reason for everything even if I may never know or understand the reason. At the end of the weekend I came home and couldn't be happier with my boyfriend and our reclaimed relationship! 


I can't help it I'm still floating on air!


Semper Fi <3

Longest Week Of My Life!

                       I feel stupid, I am scared to death and truth be told this past week has changed my life forever with out a doubt. I have some great new friends in my life who care about me and support  me even though I feel like I had to go through everything I have been through to come to this point in my life. If I could go back and redo everything I would not change a thing because whatever is meant to be will be and if Adam wants to be with me he will make an effort to get back together with me. 
                    Well I was right because he sent me a text this morning after not speaking to me for a week he at last sent me a text. He and I text back and fourth all day long and he told me that he wants to get back together with me.  He missed me and he wants to get together to talk about all of our problems and what happened the night before I broke up with him. We have not gotten to sit down and talk about everything because he has been working so much. I'm happy that he is speaking to me again even though at this point he and I are not back together at this point but things are looking up!  Im so excited to be able to sit down and talk to him about everything however he wanted to come get me tonight so we could talk about everything but then he was in so much pain because of somethings that have happened to him. So he went to sleep and Im sitting here thinking about everything that has been said today. Being in a relationship with a Marine is so hard but I have missed him so much. No we are not yet back together however I missed him texting me and telling me how much he misses me. I know its just a text message however it makes me feel like everything is getting back to how is should have been to start with I cant believe that he and I are going to really sit down and talk about everything that had been going on with us. We never really sit down and talk about things and it means a lot to me that he is going to sit down with me and talk every thing out. Maybe this will end very well and we will be back together before the end of the week. 
                  This was the second day he said that he was going to try to come get me so we can talk about everything  but he had to work and then was too sleepy or what ever. It doesn't matter to me I am just happy that he must want to talk all of our problems out because he keeps informing me that he wants to spend time with me and talk about everything. I miss my man so much I cant wait to get to see him and talk to him about all of our problems!


until next time!


Semper Fi <3

What Was I Thinking?

                       


                          I have been crying for the past few hours, I don't know what I was thinking! I did something  I wont ever be able to take back no matter how hard I try I am so stupid. I cant breath at this point in time I am so worried that I will not be able to change the mistake that I have made tonight. Okay so allow me to go back to the start of the night and tell everyone what it is that I did!


                         So Adam and I were spending time together and then he had to take me home because he had to go to work. I was totally okay with him going to work because he told me he would try to come back and get me after he got done with work.  I of course was totally okay with this because at least I got to see him. He had just gotten home from a trip to Ohio to see his daughter for her birthday. So I sat around waiting on him to call me or text me and tell me that he was on his way or that he could not come and get be after all because he had to work. I was of course excited about being able to spend more time with him however that's not the way it went down. He text me and told me that he was busy and wouldn't be able to see me tonight. I said okay and decided to go out with some of my friends to a bar  in town  that I had never been to so I thought it would be tons of fun!  Well I wasn't wrong at all, I had alot of fun when I wasn't thinking about how much I would rather have been with him the whole time. I decided to drink and well when I did that my friends agreed to not allow me to have my cell phone back until I was sober so that I would not bug Adam while he was busy. Come to find out shortly after my phone was cut off he called and text my cell phone and was so very angry thinking I was cheating on him. He went as far as to tell me that he " hoped I am having a great time with my boyfriend ." So childish of him however as it turns out he was also drunk, he was busy  drinking with his boys. I was so angry at him for making me feel bad for drinking with my friends while he was drinking with his friends. 
            After fighting with me about my picking to go out and drink he tells me that " I shouldn't listen  to him because he was drunk ." I ended up not speaking to him after all of that until  more then 24 hours later where I did the one thing I didn't want to do. I ended my relationship with Adam a few hours ago and he did not fight with me about it. Until less then an hour later when I decided to make my point and  change my relationship status to " in a relationship " on facebook. I knew he would see it just not as fast as he had seen it and I only put it as that to get a reaction out of him . Oh boy did I get a reaction out of him! He totally flipped out on me telling me " I must have never meant anything to you, if you have already moved on ." I hadn't moved on however I wanted it to hit him that he wanted me back. I was naive enough to think that it would make him want to fight for me and for our relationship. Yeah I was so beyond wrong I don't know if it made him want us back together, All I know is that I'm done talking to him and trying if he wants to be with me then he will find me and fight for our relationship just as much as I had been fighting. 
             I know that I was stupid for what I did and I want to be with him more then I can even explain however if its meant to be then it will be. I guess I just have to wait, see and pray that I didn't just end the first relationship where I was truly honestly in love with the guy and didn't want to spend another day of my life with out him by my side even if that meant that the Marine Corps would be my life until the day he got out. I decided a month ago that I wanted to be with this man. Even if that meant I would have to learn how to be the perfect Marine Wife, leaving my family and friends behind and making new ones. I would walk through the fires of hell for him. Does he know this, of course not because I am too hard headed to tell him anything that is going on in my mind.  The sun will soon becoming up and I know I wont be able to sleep but Its like almost 5am so I guess I should at least try to get some sleep. I miss him so much that it truly hurts! I feel like maybe I threw a tantrum like a child and now I'm being punished for acting out that way.


Lord What Was I Thinking?


Semper Fi <3